My Cat Jack Died Yesterday Morning-cannot even breathe!

I woke up yesterday to find Jack dead on my floor. I am so devastated and beyond words of how upset I am. I think I am still in shock. Jack and Kolbie were only 7 years old and Jack was not sick. This was a sudden and unexpected tragedy. He was laying next to me when I went to sleep.... I patted him as usual and then the next morning he was not on my bed. I looked over and thought he was sleeping on the floor. When I went to pet him and he would not wake up...I shook him and then realized he was completely stiff. I screamed and got the other person in the house....screaming he was dead but saying he cannot be dead. All day I kept saying he cannot be dead and waited for him to return. I held him even though he was so stiff his leg was stuck out above his head and cried and shook. This is beyonnd my comprehension.

I had an autopsy done and I do not have the medical term right now but his muscle around his heart was not working so it clotted. That DR said he was going to die no matter what. He said there would be no warning signs. I questioned him about fast breathing and he said yes.......but then he said.,he would have died anyway. I looked it up on the web and it said that he would have been given medication to slow his heart rate down. I TOLD 2 VETS ABOUT HIS BREATHING AND THEY DISMISSED IT. The only way they could have seen it is with an echo.

I have o many feelings and one is guilt. I rescued my baby and did I do enough? Did I not push the vets? I am so lost AND heart broken without my baby here. Kolbie is looking for Jack everywhere. They were inseparable. They slept, ate, played, layed down together....they have never once been separated since birth...7 years ago!

I cannot eat, sleep or think of anythign else. When will this pain get better? To find him like that was so awful and the vision is being replayed over and over...

This just was not upposed to happen. Kolbie has cancerous MAST cell tumors so I know he is sick......but not my Jack! I am so lost and devasted.....

any words appreciated...

Ali

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Comment by Barrels4Lyfe on December 22, 2011 at 4:50pm: So sorry for your loss!
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I made this for you. (:

Comment by JackandKolbiesMom on December 11, 2011 at 12:25pm: Thank you everyone.......I am still hurting so badly.....and so lost.....I keep looking at the spot where I found him and I am horrified. I just cannot bare to be in my own room. Kolbie is very lost and now he is very constipated and throwing up his food as a result. I am so worroede about Kolbie because I CANNOT LOSE HIM TOO!!!!!!!

Comment by PetBrags Pet Lovers Paradise on December 11, 2011 at 12:29am: Dear Ali,

I am so sorry to hear of your loss, and so shocking. I love my baby Jazzi as my child, and when I lost my little Tillie I thought I would die. God be with you, and give you some kind of peace. It's never easy to find words that remotely help. Just know we're thinking of you.

My Deepest Sympathy,

Jen

Comment by Gladys Rydbom on December 10, 2011 at 8:26pm: PROFILEANGELS.COM
I am so sorry for the loss of your precious cat,Jack. He was so loved by you and he knew that so remember all the times you would pet him and show your love in so many ways. You were both very fortunate to have each other and you will remember him always. I know you were not to blame for his problem as from your letter I can tell you were a very caring and wonderful pet lover and now your other cat will need you more than ever. Bless you . Your friend and fellow cat lover, Gladys

Comment by Kathi on December 9, 2011 at 6:19pm: I am so sorry that you have been through this. It will get easier, I know I have lost pets over the years. You will never forget Jack but know he is in a better place and you gave him so much love and care, that is more than many animals receive. You will see him again one day. Lot's of love to you, Kathi

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Comment by Wanda P on December 9, 2011 at 2:04pm: Oh honey, i am so sorry for your loss. Its heartbreaking. My arms are wrapped around you girl friend.. Know Jack is running in fields all healthy and waiting for you. Honey we all do the best we can with our pets, sometimes its gods plan to take our little friends, its harder to take when it so sudden. ali please be strong honey, its ok to cry, but do not feel guilty, but you should send a copy of the autopsy report to the vets as you took him to them and they ms-diagnosed him this will help them learn and help other cats ok.. Know i am here for you, and i think i put jack and kolbie in last years video tribute. big hug honey love wandap=ww