now what? when you cross the road of guilt

[wanda farrow]

8-1-09
today was a funny day, just when I felt the loss of my raven was starting to feel ok I ran into a lady that knew me and my raven cause she had a dog like mine that was older then raven. I ask her how was her pup and she mentioned that her pup past away too, wow I said and told her about raven, that when I learned that her pup live longer then my raven and I felt bad about that cause just when I was feeling that raven had live her life out of a 11 years I learn she could had lived longer based on her puppy, he live until 14 years I started feeling bad and now it feel like I shorten her life and now I question myself what if she could I wish she could and now the feeling are turning again like if I didn't give her a chance to fight this. now what I ask my self now what . I feel, I feel wow raven forgive me baby if I did anything wrong please I love you and miss you dearly.