coming to forgiving the clock that ran out and now searching a new found freedom

[wanda farrow]

5-19-09

Raven, all today my mind was flooded with thoughts of you, searching around in my new found freedom I still miss you. I'm approaching my birthday soon and the selfish side of me can't get pass the reality of you not being here. I been learning to live without you but it hurts, dealing with the loneliness and dealing with the fact that the greasiest love I ever experience came from you and even with you not being here i still feel the infinity of your touch. Raven I know in rainbow heaven you are having a great time in feeling the puppy in you.

I remember the adventures we went threw, going to work sharing the story's of you bring a smile to those who understood the love we had until people start asking about you as if they had meet you at one time in person that was the affect you had. even in my new found freedom I know I don't have to worry anymore, it's a thing of the past? is it? I love your smile and the way you would snuggled your body under mine, I remember how you use to wake me at 7am on the weekdays and how I use to ask for more time on the weekends and you would give it to me that extra time and how we would run around the house to go out side, oh how I remember baby us paying vollyball and chasing each other around the trees and playing hide in seek. Raven you were the best, now that summer is approaching I only have the memories of you and I enjoying summer together.

I loved the way you made me feel, I remember the first day I saw you and how you chose me and I remember the last day on how you expressed your love towards me even though we both new that it was the being of a new start you are my shinning star your soft kisses was a true delight, I love the way you love me and I coming to the forgiveness that the clock ran out on us, you was are reflection on me truly and I 'm a reflection of you.

Love Ya
xoxo
kisses