raven at age 11

in memory and in love with of my baby raven, she passed 12-18-08 and I miss her dearly, I had to put her to sleep because of a narrow wind pipe in her neck that was starting to give trouble. I was very afraid that I might come home and find her passed on with out anyone home with her, that would have just killed me to see this.

So, when the doctor told me that I would have a problem and that it would come one day, that I would have to decide. I cried thinking of everyone in my family and feeling not only for me but everyone that loved her as well.
well after two months went by after 10-08. I didn't think about it as much, with her taking medicine she still was having problems and the thought came back and every time I was faced with the thought again ,my heart will fall.

Well, a late night in december we had to rush her to the hospital and once again I had to decide , well with the doctors help and not wanting her to suffer the choice was made, and the moment I had with her pass, present, and then was the hardest, and to believe she is now gone still feels unreal.

Sitting with her, I saw her soul leave her body and as her eye's blacken the reflection of me faded away until she took her last breath.

this was the hardest and now I am crying, thinking about this again. it's so hard, but with the cards and this website I'm able to keep her memory alive and with the planting of a tree in memory of her give me something to look forward to and visit when I'm able.

feeling like a life was take and now a life is now given back by planting this tree. this was the first time I have spoke about this in this way and I thank those who have read and understood that this is my only out let for now, to balance my sorrow, I thank you all.

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